I guess I haven't updated in a while. I was waiting to update until I could give an update that went something like:

"My life is perfect, I'm making tons of money, I love my job, I love my new apartment, and oh yeah, I'm in love with the most beautiful girl ever"

So yeah, scratch that.

Life still isn't perfect. I'm making decent money. I kinda like my job (which is still 1000 times better than walmart and if I ever forget that kick my ass and tattoo it to my forehead), I think I'm gonna like my new apartment, we move in next weekend, and as for the in love part....

Not happening.

I did meet a girl on eharmony, and I did really start to fall for her. Pretty hard actually. we went out a few times and things looked pretty good, but then I realized that I was falling in love with

A) the idea of being in love.

and

b) the projected image of my ex onto this new girl. Yes there were similarities between the two, but I realized that the reason it was so easy for me to easily fall for this new girl was because I was pretending that she was someone else.

So I backed off from pursuing her, and for the last week, I've had minimal contact with her. Which is surprising because I thought that she was falling for me too and now that she's not pursuing me too hard I'm forced to wonder if she doesn't like me, or if she's just shy, or she's hurt/confused because I went from sixty to zero in 3.2 seconds.

But yeah. That's my life. Still not perfect, but a hell of a lot better than it has been for the past 2 years. I'm no longer in perma-depression mode.



Oh, weird thing of note:

Last Sunday my Dad's Mom's sister died.

Yesterday my Mom's Dad's sister died.

I'm praying to God that these things aren't happening in threes.